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Freedom (and why it isn’t free)

January 19, 2012 by Jessica Leave a Comment

freedom_640Given that yesterday was a celebration of the life and teachings of Dr Martin Luther King Jr, I started thinking about the concept of freedom, and what it means to me.

(Yes, his work encompassed so much more, but that will be for another day!)

Like so many things in my life, my internal concept of freedom has changed quite a bit over the course of my life.

If you are anything like me, when you were little, you dreamed of the day that you would be out from under the iron thumb of your parents, “free” to finally do as you wanted, rather than doing as you were told. (Boy, there are times I miss those days!)

In college, I got my first dose of real freedom. I managed to find a good balance between managing my classes and responsibilities, while taking advantage of my new found freedom. It was a fun time, reveling in the possibilities that lay open before me.

Now that I’m well beyond my college years, I have increasingly become aware of the responsibility that comes along with the freedom for which I yearn. I am exceedingly grateful to the soldiers who spend their days ensuring our freedom (though less than grateful for the deep pockets of the fossil fuel industry and the politicians that put them in the position in the first place).

Over the last year, I have really gained an appreciation for the chance I have to live life on my terms, to pursue the life I dream about, and to have the opportunity to do life- and world-changing work.

In December, I finally sold my car! Remember my post about going car-free? Well, it finally happened! In that transition, I took my first steps toward financial freedom as well as freedom from fossil fuels. I’m learning that it takes some extra planning to not have a car readily available, but I can’t begin to tell you how happy the transition makes me.

Along those lines, I am finding myself pulled to be free from consumerism. It also happens that not buying a whole lot of stuff… well, it helps with the financial freedom part of things, as well.

And, for kicks, let’s not forget my decision to be child-free.

So, what is all this talk of freedom leading up to?

Glad you asked.

It seems to me that the old saying “freedom isn’t free” has never lost its ring of truth. With freedom comes responsibility – responsibility to be educated and aware, and I’d like to add grateful to the list.

In line with being aware, I wanted to share a few things that are going on in the world of politics. I’m not one to delve too deeply into the dirty realm of the political, but there are times that ordinary citizens must wake up, stand up and raise their voices to say “enough”.

One of the immediate challenges that we face is a potential blow to internet freedom.

SOPA, the Stop Online Piracy Act (House Bill 3261 or H.R. 3261) and PIPA, the Preventing Real Online Threats to Economic Creativity and Theft of Intellectual Property Act of 2011 (Senate Bill 968 or S. 968) are both up for a vote soon.

There are quite a few large internet based companies who are actively fighting back against both of these proposed pieces of legislation – from home page statements at Google to complete blackouts tomorrow at the likes of Wikipedia and Reddit.

Here are some places for you to learn more about H.R. 3261 and S. 968.

And, articles from Forbes, the Washington Post, and WordPress.

I would encourage each of you to engage in democracy – learn about what is going on, if you haven’t already, and make your voice heard.

Dr King would have wanted nothing less.

So let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire.
Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York.
Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania!
Let freedom ring from the snowcapped Rockies of Colorado!
Let freedom ring from the curvaceous slopes of California!
But not only that; let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia!
Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee!
Let freedom ring from every hill and molehill of Mississippi.
From every mountainside, let freedom ring.

– Excerpt from Dr King’s “I have a dream” speech in 1963

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Giving Thanks (and why it matters most when things look the worst)

November 8, 2011 by Jessica Leave a Comment

thanks_640I have the feeling that if you’re carefully examining the title of this post, you may get the impression that I jumped the gun on posting it – that I meant to save it for later in the month, around the Thanksgiving holiday. Well, maybe you’re right, but wait until you have finished reading to make your final decision.

Going through a divorce has been one of the most painful and complicated and awful and terrible things I have ever experienced. Add in the stress of running a business, keeping up with a part time job and a nonprofit chair position, and it gets pretty hairy. Just for fun, throw in a totally mad 30 day challenge (see my NaNoWriMo post), and even a normally sane person would tend to get a little twitchy.

That said: today, when everything started to go wrong and all I wanted to do was crawl under my desk and sob uncontrollably… I had a realization. Despite my deep seated fear that my life was coming apart at the seams, never to be repaired, I felt this flutter of happiness.

What was it that made me smile, despite the rage and tears?

While I was walking to the post office, I passed this small, fuzzy dog who was trying to wrap its owner around a street sign. On this beautiful, sunny, 70 degree day in November, that little ball of fuzz made me remember the big black ball of fuzz who was waiting at home for me.

I am thankful for the unconditional love I receive from my fuzzy best friend.

That small reminder caused me to think about all the other things I have to be thankful for:

  • I am thankful for the love and support that I receive from my family and friends.
  • I am thankful that I live in a beautiful city where I can go car free.
  • I am thankful that I live in an age where, as a woman, I can vote (which I did today), have equality, and own my own business.
  • I am thankful that I have the opportunity to live life on my terms and the passion to carry out that opportunity.
  • I am thankful to truly be alive, and to be fully present in the moment (even when it sucks).

So, even on the days when you feel like punching a hole through the wall, or assuming the fetal position under your desk, never to reemerge into the sunlight, do me a favor.

Stop. Take a deep breath. And find at least ONE positive thing in your life.

Concentrate on that one thing, and allow yourself to be thankful. Even if that’s all you can do for today, it’s a good place to start. Be thankful for what you do have, and see if that doesn’t give you the energy to to get through until tomorrow. Wash. Rinse. Repeat.

So yes, perhaps this post should have waited a few more weeks, but it felt necessary today. I’m a firm believer that you shouldn’t wait for a holiday to be thankful for the good things in life; maybe it’s just me, but I don’t think that Hallmark should decide when you thank your mom for being awesome, or tell us that there’s just one day a year to be thankful.

What about you? What are the things you are thankful for, even on the less-than-stellar days? I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments or on twitter.

Filed Under: Writing Tagged With: balance, life lessons, nanowrimo, small business

Ripples (or: throwing rocks in life’s pond)

September 26, 2011 by Jessica Leave a Comment

ripples_640There is a software developer in town who has become somewhat of a mentor to me over the past year and a half. He encouraged me to step outside my then-current worldview, and was one of the first to encourage me to start my own business. I had been hiding behind finishing school as a start date for doing anything, but he pushed me to believe that I didn’t have to wait for some magical event; he even brought me onto a team project as a designer – my first real client work. As work ebbed and flowed, we went our own ways, and it had been a while since the last time we had spoken. This past spring we ran into a small error on the site we had worked on together, and it gave us a chance to catch up. I was getting him up to speed on everything that had been going on in my life, and he said the following:

When you make big changes in your life, it’s like throwing rocks into a pond. You never know how big the ripples will be, or how far they will spread.

It turns out that I have thrown quite a few rocks into what had once been a fairly still pond. The first big rock was starting my own business, stepping out of the traditional career track and starting on the path to creating a lifestyle that more closely reflected what I want to do with my life. Those ripples unsettled what could be considered a fairly “normal” existence: husband, house, two dogs, one car, steady careers, life planned out.

Fast forward a year, and it’s now one dog and me. I’m still riding my ripples, and still throwing rocks in the pond.

In the past year, I have learned more about myself than I would have thought possible. I have come to the realization that content just doesn’t cut it for me; I don’t want to be able to see every day of the rest of my life laid out in front of me, orderly and safe. Don’t get me wrong – sometimes I look back to that life and think how easy it was, how secure and dependable. I allow myself those moments, and then I come back to the present, the now. All it takes is the thought of all the possibilities this life holds, and I’m back in the game. I have thrown the weight of my being behind my passion for environmental change, and come to realize that I want to continue in that vein for the foreseeable future. What comes after that? Who knows.

As I continue on this path I’m carving, I will be finding myself and my balance, trying to make a difference in this world while still enjoying my days in it. And, I’ll most likely keep throwing rocks in the pond.

Who needs still water, anyway?

Have you thrown any metaphorical rocks into the pond of your life? To what effect? I would love to hear your experiences in the comments!

Filed Under: Writing Tagged With: balance, freelancing, life lessons, small business

Balance (and living with a new “normal”)

September 13, 2011 by Jessica Leave a Comment

balance_640Unsurprisingly, as I have aged and grown, the definition of what is (my) “normal” has changed. If you are like me and are constantly pushing your boundaries, constantly moving and evolving, this happens. It’s when this process gets unexpectedly accelerated that it becomes tricky to find balance.

Take, for example, being passionate enough about something that you risk getting arrested for the cause (take a look at my last post if you don’t know what I’m talking about).

My last year or so has been a whirlwind of changes, most for the better, some happier than others; I’ll touch on most of these as I continue to write here. The difference with these past four weeks is the speed at which my perceptions changed. It’s been three weeks since my release, and I am still processing what happened. I don’t know how long it will take, or if I will ever completely be able to process the experience.

I’ve had this discussion with many of the other “Tar Sands 65” – my fellow jailbirds – and many of us have found that the experience profoundly changed us. Those 52 hours lie outside the realm of any experience before, and they opened up a whole new level of consciousness for me.

My previous “normal” now feels somehow stale; this is meant in no way to be disrespectful to those who inhabited it with me, but rather as an internal reflection. Now that I have experienced what it means to stand up for something that I am truly passionate about, I don’t want to look back. I have known for some time that I stand outside the social norm, and I’m okay with that. In fact, I love it. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life being normal. Life is too short.

Trouble is – this is where the balance part comes in – there are still “normal” things that have to happen. I have to pay the bills, I have to feed myself and my dog, I have to keep some sort of shelter over our heads… those basic human needs still exist. No matter how much I want to throw caution to the wind, I realize that I have to find the balance that works for me in this moment.

So, for the time being, I’m doing what I can to be involved in smaller ways in the environmental arena, even if it means not getting paid. I’m working toward finding a paying job (or jobs) that allow me to make a substantive impact, and I’m doing what I can to find happiness along the way. I’m finding my balance as I continue to evolve. I’m positive that once another year has passed, I’ll have a whole new “normal”, and I think that’s pretty awesome.

How about you – how do you find balance in this crazy and sometimes overwhelming world? I’d love to hear your experiences in the comments!

Filed Under: Writing Tagged With: balance, change, environment

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